All this... worth it?

crazy rantings, one fine evening....

been trying to live for a while,
trying to talk my silence away.
for you to really know me,
trying to be me for a day.

never thought i would do this,
never thought i'd have to bare my soul.
to show what i've done for you,
for you to know who i am.

if i die tomorrow,
if i leave you alone.
would you cry me a river?
Or laugh away your pain?